Listen to our blood run side by side.

I'm such a bloke. A wanker. I've waited since Middle School and I am at last declaring my madness. First, loudly and quickly to make up for lost time, and then delicately because I have all the time in the world to ardently and closely admire you. 

"Oh you're in love?" You ask abruptly and mock my silence before you continue, "My condolences."

And I cannot read you.

In a minute, Paul Varjak

9

"You need a new motto" as she puts on her right blinker and goes straight.


I've got 23 dollar bills between my two hands.  She's driving straight and straight leads to Hell without a twist or a turn along her narrow spine I'm slowly crawling with my fingers.

That's what you want right? Another chapter form my book? Anyone can write that. Half the ideas come form love songs and movies you've already seen. Not one of them are meant for you. They are for me. They are for me.

One for you then.


"My parent's house isn't this... way.., hun.. you missed the turn- what're you...."

Boom. Brick wall. Glass shatters and seat belts suck. I smash the bills into smaller pieces she's confused she's confused and also out cold.



Well that's the end you guys. No happy endings. Like I said, it's @&$!% *&!#

Chapter Love & War

She’s fumbling her thumbs again. I can’t understand her when she does this. She’s choosing her words carefully, painstakingly. 

“I can’t let you do that”, she whispers with reservation, finally looking up at me.

What? 

“Why not”? my voice cracks at the confusion.

She looks back down. Her thumbs flying. Her posture is unfamiliar. Her lips careful. 

“I’m not going to make you hang around while I stay up wait for my heart to decide”. She spits this out fast before she regrets it. 

But-but. I’d do it. Anything, I’d do anything.

“I’d steal the Mona Lisa.”

“What?!”                                                                                                                                                                                            

“I’d buy the Taj Mahal!” I’m shouting, but it’s a happy, celebratory shout.

“Darling, don’t do this”

I’m thinking wildly now. “I’d turn on every light in New York City!” Quick, what else could she want? “You want the moon? Say the word and I’ll throw a lasso around it and pull it down.”

“Quit quoting George Bailey”. It’s her serious pout, and It’s mouth watering. 

I’d be anything. “I’ll be that guy in that movie you like. I’ll go-out for the team! I’ll cut my hair. I could learn guitar.”

She’s quiet and she really doesn’t get it. I’d do anything. I’d walk the Great Wall and count every brick. I’d start over each morning if that’s what she asked.

“I just want some time. Away”, she says finally. 

Anything but that. “That’ll be a dark time for me. You know that?”, She’s real good at making it difficult to speak. “But a certain darkness is needed to see the stars.” Will she think that’s cheesy?

Nice one Paul. Real smooth line. You got her with that one. 

“You’re thick-skulled.” She’s trying to look the part, but her tears are showing.

“I can be that.”

In a minute, Paul

Nobody sat in front of me so I could put my feet up.

I've been itching to get to know this girl for a few weeks. I bought tickets to Catching Fire (her friend said she reads), but she had a "family thing" and couldn't make it. I sat by myself.

I wish I was lying about this experience. To get more comments? I'd make it on the Hall Of Fame for being creative and making up something so funny. Knee-slapper.

In a minute, Paul

Basorexia: the desire to kiss

 Lay down with me. Don't quit your stammering. How many times have you kissed him today and do my eyes threaten you? I'm trying very hard not to slip. You scorn my cursing. Check the time. Your skin is so warm it makes my knees and nerves waver. 

The last time you looked this good, we were swimming in the Atlantic. Your teeth were chattering and your forehead was sweating under my whispers and secrets. You told me to shut up so many times. You were smug. You were irrational. You were clever, whimsical, daunting, and I? I was a goner.

Show me where to put them

and how long should they boil, 

these kisses of mine?

In a minute, Paul

How to be remembered

-prefer chopsticks

-wear skirts

-listen to nobody

-kiss many

-never take sugar in your tea

-write a book about owls and their rendezvous 

-double knot your laces

-tell me your secrets

-sleep with the window cracked

-wish for tornadoes and get tsunamis

Organic

Light through the white curtains. Close my eyes tighter. "Wake up".

Once, you said my groggy-waking-up voice turned you on, so I'll try it. 

"Its too early", I'm pulling the covers back to my neck.

She replies by laying back down. Our kisses straighten their backs. Stand at attention. Imagine a world where we felt more things like that. 

Wide awake now, we dance and you slowly complicate my morning. I think about oatmeal and how you're going organic. I buy Tripicana and you freshly squeeze. I like Rodizio, and you like Tucanos. We both like Chick-fil-ay (They have organic lemonade). 

It fits, you and me.

In a minute, Paul

XXX

Ashamed
to
realize I may
be dead.


I mean, it's tough. I'm terrible with parties. If I were dead, I don't think anyone would bother telling me. Wandering aimlessly. "You too could be so lucky", the preacher taps a pen across his Bible.



In a minute, Paul

Different

a photo in color

Return Policy

Poured gin in my coffee 10 minutes ago. Sour. The amount of times I’ve sat in my kitchen with a good idea fits on one hand. The amount of times. Amount of times. TIMES. Court is in 20 minutes. I’ve forgotten again. 

 

7 voice mails and 10 missed calls later:

Pinning glares from her end of the court. Next to her attorney, she looks awfully sophisticated. I sign the divorce certificate like I would a receipt. Just making a return, like the sweaters I picked out. She said they were itchy. 

I expect the judge to ask if I’d like store credit or just cash. “I have a list of other women with credentials similar to your ex-spouse”, he would say. I’d ask for cash because I don’t plan on returning.

But he doesn’t ask that and she’s wearing a sweater.

In a minute, Paul

The Night With 3 Stars

If I did happen to be thinking about you, I’d be thinking about you like toilets think about SWASS. Like girls think about baseball pants, yes I’d maybe think about your…

There’s even a chance I could slightly maybe precisely be thinking about you like keys think about getting lost in the purse, like every senior girl thinks about becoming a nurse, like I’d think to rehearse this last verse and whether or not I should curse. Or just roll my eyes.

If I sat down to think about you, I’d think about you like ties think about wives picking them out, (*nervous*) like my dad thinks about my eagle scout, like chopsticks think about Americans and take-out.

You know, it’d actually be funny if I were thinking about you like cheerios think about cholesterol. Or like if I thought about you in general, and I know you think about my pectorals.

There was this one night, it was foggy and we could only see 3 stars, but I thought about you. I actually did think about you. And we thought about each other.  You know, thought about us like lips think about licking, and you said I was unwitting, and your parents thought about our relationship they were forbidding. So we began kissing and I thought about stripping like the movies, and the strap on your tank top was slipping while our fingers were linking and we were rigging the system. Damn the system.

I thought about us like Michael Jordan thought about quitting, like Harold Miner thought about quitting, and I can’t quit thinking about you like the night with 3 stars.

I’m thinking about you like curse.

In a minute,

Paul.

Skanky Underwear

"I hate my widows peak." She says as she pulls her hair back.
"Yeah you should wax it." She looks at me with an amused pout, but here's a tint to her glare that means I've joked too far and she's trying to hide that.

"That's okay I guess, because I can't grow a beard" I say to joke about myself.

"Geeze, Paul. Will you hit puberty already?" She starts, "I'm waiting for your voice to drop." Oh how I want her.

"You should trim your bangs." I say.
"Change your skinny jeans." She retorts.
"Your room smells like canned beans."
She's confused. "But you're congested."
Think fast. "And you took all my Day-quill, you overdose case."
"You hypocrite"
"You pessimist."
"Worrier."
"Twilight fan-girl."
"Fake eyes." (I have contacts.)
"Skanky underwear."
Her brow furrows. "You like my skanky underwear." She's such a tease.
"Over exaggerate." I continue.
"Analysand."
"Foolish."
"Kill-joy." She moves closer.
"Nail-bitter."
"Realist." And closer.
"Dreamer."
"Scared of failure." Closest.

"That's a long list of things we hate about each other." I whisper to her lips.
"Lets make it longer."

She kisses me back.

In a minute, Paul.